Class time....

Sometimes when you're in class you get bored. Thats me right now... Lately every class has become extremely boring. There's always that one class that you cant find yourself to pay attention in.... 

"No it's to expensive"

Rejection ways gets the best of us. No matter who it is, popular or unpopular, weak or strong, rejection always gets to us. It can sting us lightly like a needle or something hard like a bee sting. After the rejection we feel either sad, salty, awkward and really down about ourselves.A great example would be when you ask your parent for something. You practically earned it because you work and study your ass off in school, get good grades, stay out of trouble. And you do everything in your powder to make them happy. Yet they look at you like you're crazy for even bringing what ever it was up. Something that's even worse is when they clearly have money, due to the new expensive Mercedes-Benz they own, or the new iPhone 5 that they have in hand. But yet they still have the balls to look at you in the face when you ask them to get you something that pretty inexpensive compared to all these other things, and say "no it's to expensive". That right there my friends is why I lost faith in humanity.... 

Loosing everyone

There comes a point in someone's life when they feel like they are loosing everyone. Friends, family, pets, you name it. And it leave you there feeling like you're a complete dumb ass alone. Loneliness comes in and takes over your mind and leaves you there thinking on what you did wrong. Making you doubt yourself, making you believe that your are the problem when in reality it's all their fault. 

Death

Death affects us in so many ways... It can either make us cry uncontrollably, be angry, hate the world, hate everything, or just not fee anything. When something close to you dies, it's like you lost a part of you. Even though you try to make it all go away by either listening to music, getting drunk and or high, or any escape route.. it's still gonna come back and get you. Just the thought of that person not ever coming back. Seeing their body lifeless there, slowly decreasing in temperature.... it has to be one of the worst feelings in the world....

I don't know what to say...

I'm sort of in a writers block. I can't even write down my thoughts correctly. My head pounds hard, as hard as my heart.

Changes...

It's funny how people can change drastically over night, or worse in the blink of an eye. People are very hard to understand. A human being is filled so many emotions and characteristics that is impossible for all of us to fully understand and or know completely. Even as hard as we try, we can ever fully grasp that knowledge. I am one of those people, and I become very frustrated easily because it's a pattern that is very difficult to decode.
Every single person has their own sets of characteristic or as The Sims 3 would put it, traits. These things consist of creating us. In how we act, how we see the world, how we handle certain situations, how we interact, how we react. All these are important things in being a person. But sometimes those characteristics and traits end up fading away and change into new ones. For example, a  good girl ends up changing into the total opposite. Aside from personality, the outlook in life is changes as well. Another great example on changing would be from when we change from child to young adult. As a child we view the world as this perfect place since we were being protected under out parents bubble. But as we grew and changed out views changed. I sometimes ask myself why is it that we change? Why exactly is it that we as humans change our opinions so willingly?

Is pleasure Happiness?

 Today I was engaged in a discussion on whether pleasure and happiness we the same thing or if they were two different things. Personally I think that pleasure is connected to happiness, and can trigger the emotion of being happy, but only for a moment. My interpretation of happiness is an everlasting feeling of being joyous. While pleasure is something that you like and desire for a moment. For example   drinking a class of cold water on a super hot summer day. That action is more like a pleasure rather than a happiness, but yet it's still connected because you become happy at the moment. Yes, these two words are used to describe practically the same thing but in my opinion they are different in time length. Like I mentioned above, pleasure is something that is momentarily and happiness is everlasting. Many people may disagree with me and say im totally wrong, while others may company me and my opinion. But in deep thought, is pleasure and happiness the same thing? or are they total polar opposites? 

Life?

Has it ever happened to you that, out of nowhere you stop everything you're doing and space out. And in that space out you just begin to thing about life. You think on the answers to questions like, What is the meaning of life? Why do we have to deal with all of this? Why does life tend to throw lemons instead of throwing apples or strawberries? 
When we come to realize, life is filled with challenges and problems that we all have to go through. We can either face them head or, or run away from them. Even though we know that- that problem or situation will arise once again at the end of our run. But when you really come to think about it, those challenges and problems make us grow as a person. It shows us that we are fully capable of overcoming situations. That if we have the will-power and determination we and succeed, not only in any challenges but in anything. Although many things can bring us down, remember that we are strong and fully capable to achieve anything that we set out minds to. 

Fuck a Fake Friend... where are your real friends at???

Im just going to write this post as blunt as am. Please excuse all of my cursing, that will said in this post, but i have to get my thought out. 

Have you ever had that feeling where you honestly just don't know where you stand in your group of friends. Like my previous post, there are a lot of shit talkers. And i wonder how people can just act so... so "normal" in front and with all those people who they talked so much shit about. I honestly don't know how those people can do that. When you come to think about it, mostly all of the people we associate ourselves with, come with a set of "fucked up shit" as my inner thoughts would put it. Which means things that- that certain person comes with that you can either deal with of simply not give a fuck about it. "Choose your friends wisely" and " keep your eyes open" are the two quotes that are currently running through my head at the moment. Another very famous quote that's stuck in my head is "keep your friends close and your enemies closer". But in reality shouldn't the quote be "keep your enemies close and your friends closer" because in the end the people who really end up betraying you are your friends. Since you trust in them so much, they take the opportunity and  back-stab the shit out of you. Leaving you there dumbfounded on everything that happened.
Sadly, the world is filled with fucked up people whom we have to encounter all day everyday. Like i said above, you can either put up with their same boring shit or better you can just not give a fuck and live your life happily with yourself, and with people who actually do care about you.